It's 3:15am Philippine time right now. I have an early class tomorrow. So before I TRY to go to sleep, I'd just like to share this cover by a new youtube artist that I discovered named Alexa Goddard.

the song sort of relates to my life right now. It's just that the writer is stronger than I am and is over the person who broke her heart. I'm not at that point yet, I hope I will be.

enjoy!

Best Thing I Never Had (Beyonce Cover) - by Alexa Goddard

A New Beginning

Back when I was still in highschool, I used to write enthusiastically in blogs, comments, reviews, school paper and such.

It came to an abrupt stop when one day, my mother was able to read some of my post back when I was still on *FRIENDSTER, a networking site that was a hit during those days. She reacted to some posts with motherly concern, but after which, I just stopped writing.


Soon after that, I lost the confidence to write anything for anyone, even for myself.


I created this blog to try to get the passion back, doing my best to be as anonymous as possible because as it turns out, my relatives are now into blogging (for other reasons).

It hasn't really worked out as I thought. Most of my earlier posts didn't mean anything or didn't even make sense.

My life is in turmoil right now. Everything that I believed would happen hasn't and my life has just reached a point wherein tears are not enough to let out all my emotions. So here I am, going back to the only thing that provides an outlet for all my pent-up emotions and strange thoughts & conclusions.

So what is this blog about?
It's about a 16 year old child in the body of a 21-year old young woman.
She's a pessimistic introvert who has been lost a lot of times and continues to lose her way around life.

She's over analytic, confused, well exposed yet naive, heartbroken and hopeless romantic, and a lazy dreamer.
She's a lot of things because she doesn't really know who she is.

This blog is about her discoveries, self-discoveries, adventures, misadventures, happiness, pain, dreams and nightmares.

She's me.

7 KKINDS OF SEX

This is rather hilarious. I just bumped into it while surfing the net. :)

SEVEN KINDS OF SEX

The 1st kind of sex is called ... Smurf Sex. 
This kind of sex happens when you first meet
Someone and you both have sex until you are
Blue in the face.

The 2nd kind of sex is called ... Kitchen Sex.
This is when you have been with your partner for
a short time and you are so needy you will have
Sex anywhere, even in the kitchen.

The 3rd kind of sex is called ... Bedroom Sex.
This is when you have been with your partner for a
Long time. Your sex has gotten routine and you
Usually have sex only in your bedroom.

The 4th kind of sex is called ... Hallway Sex.
This is when you have been with your partner for too
Long. When you pass each other in the hallway you
Both say ... 'Fuck You.'

The 5th kind of sex is called ... Religious Sex.
Which means you get Nun in the morning, Nun in the
Afternoon and Nun at night. (Very Popular)

The 6th kind is called ... Courtroom Sex.
This is when you cannot stand your wife/husband any more. She/he
Takes you to court and screws you in front of everyone.

And . Last ... But not least ...

The 7th kind of sex is called ... Social Security Sex.
You get a little each month. But not enough to enjoy yourself.

June 1, 06 FAVORITE LOOKBOOK LOOKS OF THE DAY

Ebba Zingmaker

I love how she paired the shirt with the skirt. I could never have thought to pair it like that. Might try it someday, If i had the guts!

Flávia Desgranges van der Linden

Shih Tzu Puppies for Sale

     My friend is selling his puppies. Maybe you would like to give this Baby a home.
It's a Shih Tzu, 9 weeks old. It costs Php 7,000. My friend is from Cebu. Comment if you're interested.

If I had money, i would buy this little darling. SO CUTE! <3

The Great Siomai Hunt

SIOMAI

     No words could describe my love for this Chinese food. I could eat a good Siomai for breakfast, lunch and dinner for a month without complaints. And I've done that.

     I first fell inlove with Siomai back in my hometown of Cagayan de Oro. There's this Chinese Restaurant that our family used to go quite frequently, even with my grandparents and all my Aunts and Uncles sometimes. Mandarin Tea Garden (Chinese Restaurant) was the place to be specially during Sundays. Their Siomai was so good and solid. You knew just by the first bite that the ingredients were of good quality. there's still a chunk of shrimp in there somewhere.

Mandarin Tea Garden (Chinese Restaurant)

http://www.mandarin.com.ph/mandarin.html

    Anyway, I was the only one who ate Siomai alone as a viand, everyone mixed them up. Mandarin's Siomai was solid and fresh. The hotsauce made it more and more special, you just couldn't get enough. 

     When I moved to Cebu, I grieved the fact that there was no Mandarin Tea Garden. I searched far and wide for the restaurants that made Siomai as good as Mandarin did. I couldn't find anyplace half as good, until, 4 months later, my classmates introduced me to this Siomai that exploded with flavor.

     I was looking for Siomai in all the wrong places, in Cebu, the best Siomai is sold on the streetside. The most famous one being Siomai sa Tisa. It wasn't fresh, nor was it made of good quality ingredients but the taste was just SO FUCKING GOOD.  This started my addiction to Siomai. I have to eat siomai at LEAST once a day, I JUST HAD TO. Cebu's Siomai makers really took Siomai to another level.

    Sad thing is, I moved to Manila after 4 blissful years of my affair with Cebu's Siomai. The search is on again, this time, it's going to be a wee bit more difficult. I've eaten Siomai's in mall Food Carts, in restaurants, in small little chinese carenderias. I was almost losing hope when last night, in Malate, I've tasted Siomai in Manila that was actually good. 

     It was P40 per 4 pcs, I think. It was a few meters away from O-bar. The Siomai was good.It wasn't the best i've tatsted but it was better then all the other Siomai in Manila. There is hope after all. I'm definitely going back there. They're Open 24 hours from Mondays to Saturdays and Half day on a Sunday.

Manila's Siomai search is on. <3

A trip to the infamous MALATE, Philippines

     Last night, I wanted to go out so badly that i practically texted most of my contacts on the phone to ask if they're awake and if they wanna go out. 90% didn't answer because it was basically 1 in the morning. 3% said they're not in Manila and 5% said they were staying indoors since it was monday, and practically there almost wasn't anywhere to go to. There was this one person though, that replied that he felt the same. He was gay.

     There was much debate on where we would go, which place would be more fun and convenient but in the end, we decided to go to MALATE. The infamous gay capital of the Philippines. I was nervous and excited at the same time but we were desperate and my friend seemed to have made up his mind.

     Unluckily, the taxi driver didn't really know where to go because he didn't go to that area much. We had to go in circles asking bystanders "where's the direction to O-Bar?". It was half embarrassing but i guess everyone in that area were used to that kind of crowd. We finally decided to go down the taxi because the bill was starting to hurt my pocket.

     We roamed around the streets of Malate for about 30 mins, basically covering most of the area. While we were aimlessly walking, we bumped into a movie set that was on break! (yipee) It took great strength not to stop and take pictures because we would look like ignorant gawking fanatics, when all of a sudden, PIOLO PASCUAL and ANGELICA PANGANIBAN were walking a few INCHES beside me! Shocker.
I'm not a fan, but it was my first time to actually see a celebrity up close without wild fans beside me.

     During those 30-45 mins walk around Malate, we passed by so many clubs that were practically gay-exclusive. There was no written sign but 98% of the crowd were gay/maya*. The streets were dark and creepy but nothing bad or threatening really happened.

     In one of the last corner, my friend suddenly squealed, he saw the sign of O-Bar. At last! It was practically 3 almost for in the morning and although the walk was fun, i really wanted to go in somewhere that I could start feeling safe. OMG. When the doors opened, everyone inside was male in gender and they were dancing with each other. Some guys were even topless and hugging each other.

     I wanted to walk away but at the same time couldn't because I was so amazed at the new and different side of the Philippines that I haven't witnessed. We went in. The guys were looking at me like I was an alien, but after a few more minuets, I felt at home. There were no sleezy guys that was hitting on me, I could dance the way I wanted for as long as I wanted and nobody really cared. The music was also great. It was actually quite good to think it was 4 in the morning.

     It was FUN. The people were decent and minded their own business. Nobody made me feel like i didn't belong. I finished one and a half bottle of Tanduay Ice when I started feeling woozy. At around 5am, they started to turn on the lights. That was our cue to leave the place. FYI: the place was still packed. I've been to SuperClubs in manila but I have never seen them partying later than 3am.

     We ate then went home. I'll be  blogging on the eating part later, because I HAVE TO BLOG ABOUT THE SIOMAI. :)

* Maya - a guy who likes a guy. They don't cross dress, they don't talk gay, they don't act gay. I think this is just a coined term by Gay people to distinguish themselves from them.

Entrance of O-Bar**

** picture taken from the internet